Prayers Please

Sallie had an appointment today with her ENT. This could get very long and complicated so I will try my best to condense this. Back when the ENT came to the point that he had to do what is referred to as a canal wall down (meaning they actually take the canal wall of the ear down and make a larger canal opening to hopefully help with the tumors that continued to come back in her mastoid area and also as a means to clean out that area without having to open up the ear from the back) he told us that from that point forward she would have to have her ears suctioned in order to clean out everything that gets into the ear which is compacted and made worse by her aids. So, from then until now we have been having this done in clinic but as she gets older and stronger and aware of what they are going to do to her each time she goes she gets harder to handle. It takes many adults to hold her down and basically the Dr is still not getting them cleaned out as much as they need to be. Also, he told us the suction is very strong and would be very strange feeling so there is reason for her fears and anxiety over this. Several months back he told us to be prepared to begin having her put to sleep in order to do this. The procedure itself is not risky. Our greatest concern is continuing to put her to sleep over and over. Today when we took her he told us it was time to have it done so we go Friday for them to do the procedure under anesthesia. Please pray first for a peace for her. As I have mentioned before the sight of hospitals and Drs offices get her so upset. She knows something is up the minute that Aaron or myself or both of us take her somewhere without the other girls. Pray that the procedure will go quickly and that there will not be any problems with anesthesia. Pray for us as parents as we try all we know to do to comfort her. I have to be honest this is hard and I keep thinking over and over why God-why can't I just play with her and not have to "take care" of these things that rip my heart out over and over again. God has revealed so much to me through Sallie and so a lot of my "whys" have been answered but I have to be real and tell you I struggle big time at times like this. Thank you so much for your prayers!