Last weekend at church we had a World Craft party. Elleigh and I were in charge of the refreshments. This is one of the things we did and I thought it turned out pretty cute. I saw the fruit skewers stuck into watermelons on pinterest which gave me the idea to use a pumpkin. I had red grapes for the skewers too but after I got them home I realized I had bought seeded. How aggravating to pick up the wrong thing! Especially when it was a big box. Anyway, we had to take some skewers and make the holes and kinda work them around so that when I stuck the fruit skewers in they would not only go in easier but also pull out without any problems. The table covering is some fabric A got me on his first trip to Africa and I have never used it. I have been waiting on something special. I am still not sure what I want to do with it but it worked well to cover the table.
I think I mentioned a while back about Ell and Ag Issues. Ell wanted to get involved to get more experience in speaking. She has some great things to share but she really has a fear of public speaking (or I should say had) and she really wanted to overcome that fear. So, when the sponsor asked her to do Ag Issues she said yes. I said, “Ag Issues?” It is a team of 5 and they come up with the topic and write their presentation. Then they are divided into pros and cons and they present each side and are then asked questions by the judges concerning that topic. They take this seriously here and they have put a lot of time into practicing and speaking at community events. This past Monday they competed and won 1st at District! She will probably kill me for this but her comments from the judges said “Great Job, speaks like a Senior, needs to do Creed speaking” I know I am bragging but I am really proud of her for doing this to help overcome a fear and then to excel! Also, Creed Speaking is something she wants to do. They present the creed from memory and then are asked questions concerning it. A girl from here won 2nd in State last yr and it hoping to win 1st in state this yr. She is a senior so they are planning to groom Ell for that to begin next yr. Tomorrow they compete in the Area Competition. Several on their team are sick with bad colds so we are hoping they are all well. BTW, she loves it BUT she does not love THE JACKET! Lizzie said, “that is NOT CUTE!” Her daddy said, “No, but it sure is a cute girl wearing it!”
Now to our CUTE Sall Sall! Here she is modeling one of her Birthday outfits and THE BOOTS! Not sure I have ever seen her love anything like these boots! She wants to wear them every day and she makes sure everyone sees them! Could you miss them???
Yesterday was our follow up from surgery. He said her ears looked fine. However, the test results were not as we had hoped. According to the booth testing they did before surgery and the sedated test they did it appears her hearing is worsening. Obviously NOT what we want… Also, we have no idea why. There is nothing that has been done or that she has had that should have affected her hearing in the time since she was last tested. So, what does this mean? First, more testing. They are setting up a sedated MRI. We really do not like continuing to sedate her but we have no choice. The MRI will be done by Children’s in Dallas. He said they had begun doing them of the inner ear in FW but they actually pioneered this type of MRI for the inner ear at Children’s Dallas so he feels they are the best and he and we want the best results we can get. This MRI will show the structure of the inner ear to see if there is an explanation for the hearing getting worse and so that we have all details we need to move forward. Also, he is setting up 3 different types of booth testing using 2 audiologist at a time which gives them as accurate of results as possible. SO, several more trips to the metroplex in the next few weeks. These 6 hours a day in a car with surgeries or Dr appts in between are no fun but we do what we have to do. A and I both had a million questions in our heads yesterday and we did ask some but I said to Dr. Bauer, “I have so many questions that I know you really can’t answer until we have the other tests” and he said to me, “I am glad to attempt to answer them but you are right, we need the other tests” So, we wait…. He was very honest with us yesterday that no matter what we were about to be faced with some very difficult decisions to make. He went through the different options and none of them are really “good”. How are we? A always holds it together (to an extent) in the beginning and me not so much. I am broken and tired and broken, very broken. I have not been this broken in a LONG time. Thankfully my Lord puts me back together again and again and again. I feel like my hopes are being ripped away yet I know where my hope really is… However, it still hurts. I have cried more than I have in a long time and it’s been a really long time since I just couldn’t talk about it and that is where I am right now. I woke up in the middle of the night and the words of this song were my first thought:
“I have a maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hands
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He see each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
I have a father
He calls me his own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear the falls
And hears me when I call
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He see each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
And he knows your name
He knows your every thought
He sees all those tears that fall
And he'll hear you when you call”
I have no idea the last time I have heard this song. I want to be strong. I want to move on (now!) but HE does know my thoughts and He does see each tear that falls and HE will never leave me. After I got up this morning I looked up this song and as I read the first 4 lines (which were not in my mind when I woke up during the night) the Lord spoke to me through that. Yesterday on the way home I just kept thinking over and over that HE made Sallie and HE has a purpose for her which may be far from what I want. Her life is in HIS HANDS.
We appreciate your prayers. Please pray for the tests to be accurate. Please pray for peace for her as she goes through more testing. Please pray for our Dr and the audiologist as they present us with our options. Most of all we want to know what God wants us to do. That is the decision we want to make and to have peace in that.