Yes, another medical update! Such fun! I counted yesterday and we have had 16 doctor visits since mid January! 2 of those were ER visits. The girls have to go to the dentist soon but I decided to wait a month to schedule and hopefully we will not be spending all our time at the doctor. I got my results back and the tests for connective tissue diseases came back normal. I am thankful, yet ready for some kind of answers. What next? The Dr now wants me to move on to nerve studies to try and identify the problem. I have not felt well at all over the past few days. Saturday I was really sick. I felt just like I did when this all first started (8 weeks ago). My head feels really strange and I felt like I was going to pass out, etc. So, thankfully it was Saturday and A was home and I spent lots of time in bed. I feel some better today but not a lot. I know that God is in control and His timing is not my timing and I am constantly trying to remind myself of that. However, I have to be real and say that I am very frustrated right now. I think it is a lot easier to be positive and hopeful when you feel better physically but it is so frustrating to have a family to care for and feel this way and then to not have a clue what is wrong with me or what will happen next. I do know where my hope is and that will get me through as always! There have been so many times in the past when we would be dealing some type of trial and I would be down and out about it and A will always say you can do this-you are a strong woman and my response would be "I am tired of being strong". I think that is how I feel right now-tired of being strong. I know this is a not a very uplifting post but I think it is important for us to be real and I think we all feel this way sometimes. The key is we can't remain in that slump, we have to rely on God to bring us out and we have to focus on the hope we have in Him. So many of you have been so sweet to tell me that you are impressed at how I handle everything and the outlook I have when things are not going so well, so I think I owe it to you to let you know I don't always have it "together". Satan really does get us when we're down! I feel so much better since I got all that out and gave myself a pep talk! Thanks for allowing me to do that! Please continue to pray. I probably will not post again on me and whatever is wrong with me until we know something, unless there is some significant change.
Psalm 103: 2-5 “Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits - who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.”